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grace under pressure

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 02:52:54 GMT

sabi nila, 'yan daw ang dapat kong matutunan.

pero wala eh. mahirap akong matuto.

hindi ko talaga kaya. under pressure, i become soft.

lintek na. parang kapirasong karne.

kunyari matigas.

lagay mo sa pressure cooker, lalambot din.

crash

Sun, 18 May 2008 05:02:41 GMT

and she stared back
with those empty brown eyes
a grief stricken soul

years of confusion
she lost sight of the shore
a lightless star

love was sweet
when she was young
a distant memory

with her warm hands
she healed and comforted
a life well-lived

on cosmetic surgery

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 17:10:34 GMT

cosmetic surgery is not for me. not because i'm too stupid to distinguish what is beautiful from what is not... i just don't wanna argue with God's concept of beauty. if He thinks that flat nose is beautiful, then it is.

happiness...

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 15:36:05 GMT

... is deciding ...
    ... to LOVE MORE those things ...
        ... and people that you love ...
            ... and to ALSO LOVE those you hate.

last two weeks.

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 12:27:36 GMT

simula bukas, dalawang linggo na lang ang lalabi sa clerkship ko.

EKSAKTONG DALAWANG LINGGO.

meron na lang akong dalawang linggo para maging tanga. kailangan mag-cram, pero imposible 'yun ngayon kasi sangkatutak na pocketbook ang pinagbibibili ko. tsk, tsk.

ang hinaharap, masaya kung iisipin, pero sobrang nakakatakot din.

bright side: malapit na internship! at summer na! malapit nang pagpawisan ang kili-kili ko sa ilalim ng blazer na may nakaburdang "MARGE C. CARINO, M.D." sa kaliwang dibdib at may logo ng ospital. nice. hehe. yabang. ;p

dark side: eh utak clerk pa din ako eh! ang alam ko lang eh mag-refer. hehe.

ewan ko ba. isang taon lang akong naging clerk, pero hindi ko na makita ang sarili ko na hindi clerk. mamimiss ako ang pagiging clerk. sobrang dami kong natutunan, hindi lang tungkol sa pagiging duktor, kundi sa mga tao, sa buhay, at higit sa lahat, sa sarili ko: mga kahinaan, at mga kalakasang hindi ko alam na meron pala ako. hay. 'yun lang.

hoot! hoot!

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 06:51:29 GMT

yaz, we survived UST Medicine Revalida, and now have m.d.'s affixed after our names. ;)

thanks to everyone who prayed for us. =)

i would not comment on the revalida. about it being overrated and tribe-dependent and so on. nor would i dare relive in writing what transpired that day. i'm not bound to forget, anyway. it would go down in my history as the most nerve-wracking day of my life. (trackback: 12 march '04 - my spirits are soaring 'coz i'm at the 1st incubus concert in manila; 12 march '08 - my spirits are soaring 'coz i passed the oral revalida. and polo got a meritissimus!) i'm just happy it's done. after weeks of anxiety attacks, i am once again back to my meaningless existence. thank God. :)

in line with this, i think a show of gratitude is in place for everyone who have, in one way or another, contributed to my achieving my desired end point.

Lord, i can never thank You enough.

Papa, i hope i somehow made you proud.

to my mom, my litol bradur, and the rest of our crazy family, thanks very much for believing in me.

sa mga co-clerks ko, sa mga nagpakabait at sa mga nangupal, salamat. you have taught me a lot.

bispren bangi and dearest daisy, thanks for the prayers. (and the tranquilizing text massages.)

sa mga nagpost ng incubus live in manila 2008 sa youtube, i love you all! thanks for sharing the experience with us. fafa brandon, i'm sorry i wasn't able to make it.

lola rej, salamat sa lahat. utang ko sa'yo 'tong pagpasa ko. :)

hun, thanks for being my partner in crime and my clever medicine. i love you! ;p

sa mga pinakamamahal kong mga pasyente, maraming maraming salamat. this one's for you.

for nanay trining
and rhoda,

wish you were here.

endorsed.

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 15:14:10 GMT

dear Lord,

thank You for looking out for me the entire night and not letting my patient with a "do not resuscitate" status die out on me. i'm sorry i was sort of getting in your way, i'm just not ready to give her up yet. you know how much i fear Death, thank You for not letting him come near me last night. i can never say it enough - thank You.

love,
clerk carino

x's
Your will be done.

life cycle.

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 08:14:43 GMT

REVALIDA. preduty. duty. REVALIDA. from duty. INCUBUS. preduty. MAROON 5. uy, fistulectomy! duty. from duty. REVALIDA. preduty. duty. from duty. INCUBUS. preduty. MAROON 5. duty. hemorrhoidectomy. MAROON 5. from duty. REVALIDA.

'yan ang takbo ng napaka-maaksiyong buhay ko sa GS 2,4. ang saya di ba?

sana maging kasing swerte na lang ako ni St. Joseph of Cupertino. sana madami na lang akong pera. sana hindi na lang ako duty ng March 9. (malabo na tuloy akong makapanood ng incubus.) sana may tickets pa for maroon 5.

hay. namimiss ko si kasparov at si anne rice.

stress.

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 09:06:09 GMT

i need to rack me up some dough REAL QUICK! two of my most favorite bands are in town. in the same friggin' week. and revalida's just lurking around the corner. wahhh!!!! (bakit mas mahal ang tickets for maroon 5 kaysa incubus? not that i'm complaining... i love incubus more so that's to my advantage. :D just wonderin'. :) )

BTL.

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 12:05:19 GMT

hindi 'yan bizarre triangle of love.

hindi rin 'yan bacon, tomatoes and lettuce.

magmumura na naman ako.

PUT*NGIN*NG 'YAN.

sinabi nang walang pilitan eh.

hindi naman dahil taga-UST ako eh.

hindi lang kasi talaga ako naniniwala sa contraception.

family planning? sige. pero hindi contraception.

first duty ko sa fabella, naging material cooperant ako sa bilateral tubal ligation.

PUT*NGIN*NG "YAN.

if I turn into another
dig me up from under what
is covering the better part of me.