simula bukas, dalawang linggo na lang ang lalabi sa clerkship ko.

EKSAKTONG DALAWANG LINGGO.

meron na lang akong dalawang linggo para maging tanga. kailangan mag-cram, pero imposible 'yun ngayon kasi sangkatutak na pocketbook ang pinagbibibili ko. tsk, tsk.

ang hinaharap, masaya kung iisipin, pero sobrang nakakatakot din.

bright side: malapit na internship! at summer na! malapit nang pagpawisan ang kili-kili ko sa ilalim ng blazer na may nakaburdang "MARGE C. CARINO, M.D." sa kaliwang dibdib at may logo ng ospital. nice. hehe. yabang. ;p

dark side: eh utak clerk pa din ako eh! ang alam ko lang eh mag-refer. hehe.

ewan ko ba. isang taon lang akong naging clerk, pero hindi ko na makita ang sarili ko na hindi clerk. mamimiss ako ang pagiging clerk. sobrang dami kong natutunan, hindi lang tungkol sa pagiging duktor, kundi sa mga tao, sa buhay, at higit sa lahat, sa sarili ko: mga kahinaan, at mga kalakasang hindi ko alam na meron pala ako. hay. 'yun lang.

intoxicated hallucinations.

yaz, we survived UST Medicine Revalida, and now have m.d.'s  affixed after our names. ;)

thanks to everyone who prayed for us. =)

i would not comment on the revalida. about it being overrated and tribe-dependent and so on. nor would i dare relive in writing what transpired that day. i'm not bound to forget, anyway. it would go down in my history as the most nerve-wracking day of my life. (trackback: 12 march '04 - my spirits are soaring 'coz i'm at the 1st incubus concert in manila; 12 march '08 - my spirits are soaring 'coz i passed the oral revalida. and polo got a meritissimus!)  i'm just happy it's done. after weeks of anxiety attacks, i am once again back to my meaningless existence. thank God. :)

in line with this, i think a show of gratitude is in place for everyone who have, in one way or another, contributed to my achieving my desired end point.

Lord, i can never thank You enough.

Papa, i hope i somehow made you proud.

to my mom, my litol bradur, and the rest of our crazy family, thanks very much for believing in me.

sa mga co-clerks ko, sa mga nagpakabait at sa mga nangupal, salamat. you have taught me a lot.

bispren bangi and dearest daisy, thanks for the prayers. (and the tranquilizing text massages.)

sa mga nagpost ng incubus live in manila 2008 sa youtube, i love you all! thanks for sharing the experience with us. fafa brandon, i'm sorry i wasn't able to make it.

lola rej, salamat sa lahat. utang ko sa'yo 'tong pagpasa ko. :)

hun, thanks for being my partner in crime and my clever medicine. i love you! ;p

sa mga pinakamamahal kong mga pasyente, maraming maraming salamat. this one's for you.

intoxicated hallucinations.

dear Lord,

    thank You for looking out for me the entire night and not letting my patient with a "do not resuscitate" status die out on me. i'm sorry i was sort of getting in your way, i'm just not ready to give her up yet. you know how much i fear Death, thank You for not letting him come near me last night. i can never say it enough - thank You.

love,
clerk carino

x's
Your will be done.

intoxicated hallucinations.

REVALIDA. preduty. duty. REVALIDA. from duty. INCUBUS. preduty. MAROON 5. uy, fistulectomy! duty. from duty. REVALIDA. preduty. duty. from duty. INCUBUS. preduty. MAROON 5. duty. hemorrhoidectomy. MAROON 5. from duty. REVALIDA.

'yan ang takbo ng napaka-maaksiyong buhay ko sa GS 2,4. ang saya di ba?

sana maging kasing swerte na lang ako ni St. Joseph of Cupertino. sana madami na lang akong pera. sana hindi na lang ako duty ng March 9. (malabo na tuloy akong makapanood ng incubus.) sana may tickets pa for maroon 5.

hay. namimiss ko si kasparov at si anne rice.

intoxicated hallucinations.

i need to rack me up some dough REAL QUICK! two of my most favorite bands are in town. in the same friggin' week. and revalida's just lurking around the corner. wahhh!!!! (bakit mas mahal ang tickets for maroon 5 kaysa incubus? not that i'm complaining... i love incubus more so that's to my advantage. :D just wonderin'. :) )

intoxicated hallucinations.